A conversation we're not supposed to be having

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Hi again,
I miss you.
That's nothing new though.

I have a list running in the back of my mind of all the things I would say and do and tell if you were beside me.
I have unheard words floating up to the ceiling every night, but it's okay. It gives me something to read when I can't sleep.

Companionship in any form is always nice.
What's your dog's name?
I'm sorry about college. That phrase can be interpreted two ways.

You're not stuck if you have an idea of where you're going.
Maybe you just need a map.

Writers block comes from an unconscious fear that people are reading what you're writing.
Honesty is scary, especially when its the contents of your heart.

So write like no one is reading but you.
Admit things you don't want to say out loud, those are the things people really want to read.

I wish things were different. I want to be the bandaid for all your problems. I want to be the arms you seek shelter in. I want to be the bed you fall into every night.

It's frustrating to want things and know you can't have them.
I want to fix everything for you.
I honestly just want to wrap myself around you and tell you it's gonna be okay.
Everything is okay as long as we have each other.

But we don't, do we?

I still hope things will turn out okay anyway.

Always writing to you, even when you aren't reading.

Sincerely,
Your favorite frustration.

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