A montage of goodbye
He and I were going to paint the kitchen yellow. I thought about that last night while I was thinking of you and the way your shoulders sloped like hills and valleys. The way I would kiss them while you were sleeping soundly beside me, back turned. I wondered why you always slept with your back to me. I remembered one time where you had fallen asleep holding me while watching a movie late in my apartment one night on the thirteenth floor. I had gotten up to brush my teeth and by the time I returned you had already turned away and the spot we were intertwined was warm. You and I were going to build a library with shelves to the ceiling and a fireplace because my feet are always cold and two desks with their back to each other so we could work quietly like we used to with me cross legged on your bed pressed into the corner and you at the desk. Was my presence enough? Could you feel me in the room or when I was sleeping beside you? You didn't feel the need to envelop me in every room