The moment right now

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This moment. Right here. Right now.
The moment is different while I'm writing this,
than when you're reading it.
I can't pin this moment's wings to a piece of cardboard,
because I can't really catch this moment,
and if I did then I don't know if it'd be the right moment.
I can write how I feel but when the words are on paper I can't guarantee I still feel that way.
And I just want to say as I'm writing this I'm happy and sad and nostalgic all at the same time.
I love him but never want to see him again.
I'm broken in one way and whole in another.
This moment right now is filled with contradictions,
And the moment changes like my mind,
I feel everything and nothing at all,
And I'm just trying to figure out how than can be.

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