Reminiscing

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I think I'll always remember the Sunday where I sat in your lap in a random parking lot in the middle of the day. My arms clung to your neck and I sobbed into your shoulder. 

"Just stay. Please stay. Let me be your girl. I want to have Sunday dinners with your family and love them like my own. I want them to tease you about me. I want us. So just stay. Let me be your girl." 

And you touched my face tenderly and smiled a smile that broke my heart as you told me. "You're a tough girl to refuse."

But we both knew you were.

And you touched my stinging stomach from the night before where I stood on your doorstep meeting your mother for the first time, asking her where you were.

"I told you she would've liked you. She thought you were sweet."

You always knew how to break my heart in so little words.

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