Grief Written

I’m crying and my breath is rattling in my chest like loose change And I’m reading poetry And I’m wondering how this all happened How I got here How everything is the same but everything is so different  I want my mom but we don’t speak anymore  And my dad is asleep  And everyone else who I used to dial, their phone goes straight to voicemail  There are no lucky pennies  There is no poetry  Just a girl with green eyes like a plant that’s been watered too much  And a smile like crescent moon that wavers with passing days  I’d like to be swallowed up by the ocean