Lessons in theology

 I have sympathy for the devil. 

I think anyone who has loved me isn’t surprised by the sentiment. 

It’s been said that Lucifer was God’s favorite angel, seated at the right hand of the father.

Lucifer means “morning star” or “light bearer.”

God created an angel, whom he loved.

It is written that God created the world in seven days,

On the first — he created light.

Then as it follows is the sky, the earth and all its glory, the sun and moon, animals of the air and sea, land animals and human kind and then on the seventh day — God rested. 

God created Lucifer, whom he loved, and subsequently created light itself of which Lucifer was to bear.

I imagine as God rested, Lucifer eagerly pinpointed the sky with stars so as the sun went down — there was no total darkness. 

But then there was the Great War in Heaven

And Lucifer was cast down.

He didn’t fall — 

His father, whose first act of creation bore resemblance to his favorite son, cast him out.

God does love the angel that He created, but He hates what that fallen, sinful angel has become

— or so it was written

Lucifer lost everything in an act of rebellion,

But what if his act of rebellion was a final act of love?

What if Lucifer, the bearer of light, knew the darkness the world would posses? His insistence that God send him extending from his light and not pride?

He could see the pitfalls of agency,

The darkness a soul could plunge into so precariously. 

I too have been accused of attempting to force people into the light,

Rescue them from the consequences of their sins,

Bearing the brunt of the stain.

And for this,

Lucifer was cast down to total darkness

Known no longer by the glory of his name

“The day star, son of the dawn”

but as Satan in which the literal translation means “accuser.”

I’ve also been known to accuse God of many things.

But perhaps I’ve let my sympathy get the better of me,

Or what’s left of the best of me — after I gave it all to you.

They say, “pride goeth before the fall.”

So I try to hold onto the allegory —

And simultaneously let go of you.

My final act of love,

And as I plunge into utter darkness — I’ll search for the light I left behind.

When it’s gone, 

I will rest.

And then — 

In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the faces of the waters. And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light. And God saw that the light was good.

— or so it was written.